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18.10.11

The Hunt


The Hunt

The young Saqui was once again hungry for the heavy feel of a man’s arms around her. She was hunting again. It was a Tuesday night which meant the ritualistic visit to the meat market knows as “Sloans”.  The local dive bar/pick up joint on Melrose which was popular with the young Hollywood crowd during the early 7-‘s. This was life before Melrose was “Melrose”. When there was no counter culture scene. The dive bar of the day, that featured Tuesday night specials: $.75 shots.



The routine was simple: put on a mask (make up), don a costume (sexy outfit), march in a parade (walk around the packed noisy bar where men would leer and lurk at the display from their bar stools) and participate in the game of “cat and mouse” (first you show a bit of interest with eye contact, a smile or simply “hello”) then you check the response – if it does not meet or exceed expectations the scene is replayed until a “magical” spark is felt between the hunted and the hunter. It matters not who sends or who receives and most often no one cares or even knows.

This night was like any other night for Saqui, or so she thought. Saqui found the lucky man for that night. A nameless form to satisfy her need to be held. Little did she know what was to occur. Saqui loved the hunting game, it gave her the illusion of power. Something that she never really had explored previously. This excited her in ways beyond the thought process – beyond the emotional aspect – it awakened the beastly goddess within. 

A few of the cheap shots of low grade booze (Tequila was her chosen poison this night) and she was ready for the game. The warmth of the liquor burned inside, not unlike seemingly dormant kindling wood about the hit the flashpoint and burn beyond containment. Caught up in the heat of the hunt, her excitement and anticipation were near to matching the intensity of the drink which coursed through her veins. Saqui could feel the moistness increasing in the palce where her jeans were forced to creep up. Those jeans were snug to the point of revealing her peace shaped mound, just below where the zipper ended. The true mound of venus. This tightness only heightened her excitement.



Within the firm pressure just enough, Saqui found that she could shift her weight on a barstool… just the right way, just slightly and the mound would swell, making the jeans even tighter.

This made the game all the more interesting. The more she drank, the more the flames burned. The less she cared, the more open she became. Maybe this time she would find the right one.. the one that could make her feel something in bed.

Saqui left Sloan’s with a nameless man to parts unknown to perform unspoken acts.

They drove about 20 minutes (she could not remember who drove that night) heading west towards the beach. Saqui and her mating partner arrived at his apartment soon afterwards. They climbed the brick steps of the building which looked more like a European shopping center than an apartment building. 


The Pacific ocean could be heard crashing behind them as they moved to the back of the building through the courtyard. The slight ocean breeze refreshed her and for a moment, she stood back and wondered if she dare follow through on this adventure. 






A part of her knew this all could turn out bad. Saqui was not a stranger to trauma. She ignored the feeling in her stomach and extinguished the doubt as she followed him through the white framed door to apartment number 7.  She hoped it would be a lucky number for her.

Once Saqui walked through the door she knew there was no turning back. The apartment was very small and she could feel the walls closing in. She turned back and looked at the paned glass front door and notice the illusion of splendor. However, the studio inside was devoid of all but the most practical necessities. A bed, a dresser, and in the corner a few items served as a kitchen: tiny stove sink and fridge.

Saqui was pulled from her thoughts, as the lover pulled her do the bed in the darkness.

It was her lucky night after all… to be continued


The Awakening


The adventures began with the “birth” of Saqui as from one world to another – a transformation, actually, which occurred in July of 1972 ~ it was a spiritual awakening as well as a physical one which unfolded before this wide eyed young student of life.

As one spirit left this plane of consciousness, “she” unknowingly showed Saqui the path which she was to follow for years to come.

The progress of growth is slow.. the seeds are planted.. the ideas are fertilized and then slowly, ever so slowly, with the right nurturing, care and love you finally see the results.

Just as the slow pace of a plant’s maturity so was the physical growth and maturity to come to Saqui. It was to take years of plodding through an existence absent of pleasures of the flesh before she reached her understanding of its potential.

The walls of the dam were finally broken and the passions were released. The demons and goddesses which had been harnessed for so many lifetimes were finally able to express themselves~

This erotic journal is the story of the awakening of:“The Goddess Within Saqui”.

May you enjoy the reading about my erotic adventures as much as I have had watching them unfold. 

Secrets of Saqui


Under this conservative shell simmers the secrets of my desires – my darkest wishes.

Lurking in the shadow of my corporate facade lies the deeply disturbed mind of an injured soul.

I am a survivor and thriver – no longer accepting the title of "victim". I now face my demons and cut them down to size. 

It is all a matter of perspective, just like looking at the camels in the desert – 



if you look at the photo you will see a herd of camels walking across the desert... but the camels in this image are the white small rock looking images.. what you think were the camels were actually only the shadows.

We tend to focus on the shadow and give it power over us. 

I take back my power ~ I am breaking free from the past and allowing myself to embrace all of those pieces that make me who I am today.

I am greater than the sum of the whole (Gestalt).

I am grateful for the experiences.  I am no longer trapped in the shadows in the corners of my mind.

As REM once sang: “oh no I think I’ve said too much ~ I haven’t said enough…” and today I am “choosing my confessions”.

Although I would sometimes wish it were just a dream, it wasn’t – so now I am moving to the spotlight. As you know shadow creatures just like vampires, will be destroyed once brought to light – or if light is brought to it...